White lightning

I don’t know if I feel like writing because I am sitting here with Jim and Gayle quietly like we did so much last fall in Seattle or if I just have to tell a story. I think it might actually be a combo of the two really. This week though a recurrent theme has…

The Hans laugh

Being back to work is such a privilege. It really is. A year ago I was still freaking out that it may never happen and although there have already been moments I am shaking my head wondering why I do it I can openly admit at the end of each day I feel pretty lucky…

The pace I want

Slowly but ever so steadily my life seems to be return to the pre cancer pace I used to once thrive on. I would like to claim I wasn’t fatigued or feeling older than I used to but that would be a lie. I will admit that I will continue to try and put on…

Filling a gap

The gaps in my writing seem to be getting longer. There are days when I think of some interesting topic and by the time I roll around to having time to write it doesn’t seem as poignant or as well thought out as I would like it to be. That is an interesting thought seeing…

Bring the snow

Last year I made it home from Seattle in time for the Halloween festivities and at the time that was a big step. To be around the kids and wander around our neighborhood was a wonderful treat given my situation. One other highlight was the chance to go to one of the ski swaps. Yes,…

A few firsts

There were moments during my darker moments of stumbling through the darkness of cancer when I often thought of what it would be like to return to work as a physician. I now have about two months of working back under my belt to know that sort of like riding a bike or the first…