There have been days when I have felt decent in the last year. Today, I am tired. I am not tired from not sleeping, getting up to pee, vomitting, coughing, nurses waking me up, timed medications, IV medications needed, anemia, or any of the other myriad of difficulties which made me tired this past year. I am tired becasue I really got out today. I am tired from watching my boys, skiing, the sun, ice skating, talking with good friends, good food, all the ideals of a normal happy Sunday. I am tired becasue I lived. I lived a day that really almost felt like I didn’t have cancer. In fact I hope I don’t have it anymore. Yet, I lived today as if I didn’t. I have been tired a lot this last year and I will tell you that this tired feels much better. May all your tireds be from living happily.